So for about three weeks not I have been feeling really down. As I stated some things about my mom. You most likely figured out that I don't get along with her very well. Which is very true I don't really care to talk to her or see her much. But deep down inside of me I really miss her. I don't miss how she treated me or how she acted or the things that she did. But I do miss her because she is my mom. I really wish that I could forget the past and what happened. But as you can imagine it is very difficult to forget something like that. I cant say that I have fully forgiven her for what she did but I have let go of some of it. And as Christmas time comes around I cant help but start to wish that she was here. Even though I don't want to go see her or for her to come see me. I think the reason behind that is I don't wont to give her a false idea that everything is okay between her and I. But I know that if I don't go and see her that she will be very hurt. And I cant bring myself to hurt someone because I know how bad it hurts to be hurt. And trust me we all know how it feels and nobody deserves to be hurt no matter what. So what I guess I am trying to say is that I wish i could forget everything that happened and forgive her completely and move on with my life. And that I can start to rebuild my relation ship with her again. Because I don't wont her to die not know that I do really love her. I don't think I could go through that again.
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So if anyone has any advise on how to help me out with this PLEASE let me know.
Marissa LeeAnn Thompson
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